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Angie_Rivas1
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Posted: Sun Aug 26th, 2007 12:27 am |
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I am asking you to please keep me in your prayers as I continue falling deeper and deeper in to an emptiness I have never known before. I am afraid I lost my conscience which had kept me grounded for so long. At this moment in my life, I have nothing... not even His grace. I feel numbness! I am in a horrible place to be. I do not how long more I need to endure for I am very weak and tired.
Angie
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David W. Emery
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Posted: Sun Aug 26th, 2007 01:19 am |
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You do have one thing, Angie: faith. This will serve as your anchor and lifeline. Compare your own condition with the discussion in this thread.
Meanwhile, you remain in my prayers.
David
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Posted: Sun Aug 26th, 2007 01:30 am |
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Angie, I will pray for you tonight. I found the following in the Catholic Book of Prayers:
Prayer for Fortitude
Dear Jesus, lay your Wounded Hand
Upon my weary head,
And teach me to have courage
In the paths that I must tread.
Bless me, and bless those whom I love,
And give us grace to see
These crosses bravely borne by us
Will keep us close to Thee.
And if at times a shadow falls
In unexpected ways,
Put Your gentle Hand in mine
And guide me through the days.
So bless my people, one and all,
With Thy protecting grace,
And impart to them Thy Wisdom
Ere they meet Thee face to face.
Please let us know how you are doing. God bless
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Posted: Sun Aug 26th, 2007 01:43 am |
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| Angie, one more thing, you haven't lost your conscience or you wouldn't be worrying about it. I'm sorry you're having such a bad time. I know when I have a low point, spending time in the presence of the Blessed Sacrament always helps. Also, trying to find a way to help someone else who needs it can lift your morale. If it continues, you may need to seek help for depression, if only temporary. I will continue to pray for you.
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BettyBoopToo
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Posted: Sun Aug 26th, 2007 04:38 am |
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Angie_Rivas1 wrote: I am asking you to please keep me in your prayers as I continue falling deeper and deeper in to an emptiness I have never known before. I am afraid I lost my conscience which had kept me grounded for so long. At this moment in my life, I have nothing... not even His grace. I feel numbness! I am in a horrible place to be. I do not how long more I need to endure for I am very weak and tired.
Angie
I'm so sorry for this hardship that has been placed on your heart. I cannot even pretend that I know what your going through, so I'll not try.
I will add you to my prayers and offering for your intentions. I cannot imagine what it is like.
I do know that every time we suffer mentally or physically we can join it with our saviors suffering on the cross and when offered to him, it will never be wasted. The Lord Jesus Christ and his blessed Mother Mary both love you very much. Although we don't understand right now why your being called to go through this time of pain/suffering, God can use it for a greater good for your soul. I pray that he will some day reveal it to you and also give you the graces and assistance to walk this path.
Normally when I'm enduring the very most pain and suffering, I stay very close to our mother and ask her for her prayers for relief and if not relief then the graces and strength to endure. I also as Marsha suggested force myself out and head down to our adoration chapel and even when I'm too weak to pray or even read somthing spiritual. I just sit in silence with our lord. You can even read a short passage from the beginning of the passion like Luke 22; 42 and just mediatate on what Jesus was going through and said to the father at this time of great torment and need.
I pray that this time of darkness will pass on by and you'll be renewed as soon as the lord feels it's time. and in the mean time, we are all here for you and your in our prayers.
God Bless
Betty
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rose may
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Posted: Tue Aug 28th, 2007 10:56 am |
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Time magazine has a huge spread on Mother Teresa's long-suffered faith crisis which is fascinating to contemplate. I am very mixed about the ethics of printing her letters to her confessors and spiritual directors and such, but it has inspired at least one person , me. Perhaps you might find some comfort in reading through this article:
http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1655415,00.html
"Although perpetually cheery in public, the Teresa of the letters lived in a state of deep and abiding spiritual pain. In more than 40 communications, many of which have never before been published, she bemoans the "dryness," "darkness," "loneliness" and "torture" she is undergoing. She compares the experience to hell........."
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TT17Claret
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Posted: Tue Aug 28th, 2007 12:28 pm |
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Angie_Rivas1 wrote: I am asking you to please keep me in your prayers as I continue falling deeper and deeper in to an emptiness I have never known before. I am afraid I lost my conscience which had kept me grounded for so long. At this moment in my life, I have nothing... not even His grace. I feel numbness! I am in a horrible place to be. I do not how long more I need to endure for I am very weak and tired.
Angie
Angie, you DO have His grace. You wouldn't have come here asking for prayers otherwise. Whatever is troubling you keep in mind that suffering is one way God uses to bring us closer to him. I will keep you in my prayers.
Tony T.
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Annie
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Posted: Tue Aug 28th, 2007 03:30 pm |
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| An important lesson in the Ignatian exercises says that when entering a period of desolation make no changes. This means don't change your spiritual routine, such as prayers, etc. If you change the routine you may dig yourself in deeper. You are supposed to remember what it was like when you were in a period of consolation and do whatever it was you were doing then. This has helped me a lot through desolation.
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Ora et labora
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Darlene
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Posted: Wed Aug 29th, 2007 01:49 am |
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Dear Angie,
I just read your post now. I will pray for you before I go to sleep this evening. For many years I dealt with depression. It would descend upon me like a heavy cloud, which try though I may, I could not lift. I felt as though the heavens were as brass. I felt empty inside and could only say to the Lord that I didn't know what to say to Him. I would keep asking for His forgiveness, but not assured that I had received it.
David said, "When the cares of my heart are many, thy consolations cheer my soul." I have found, and many others as well, that reading the Psalms can be a comfort to one's soul. David experienced a gamut of suffering and it has been written down for us to help us in times just like you are going through.
Do you have a friend or family member in whom you can confide? What about your Confessor or a priest? Right now, you need Jesus with skin on. Do not suffer in silence.
"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for thou are with me." "Cast all your burdens on Him, for He cares for you." "For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Sister Angie, may you take comfort in the words of Sacred Scripture, which are spoken to us from the heart of God.
In Christ's Love,
Darlene
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The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all. II Corinthians 13:14
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Angie_Rivas1
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Posted: Thu Aug 30th, 2007 03:59 am |
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Dear CHN Family,
Thank you all for your thoughtful words, concern, love, and prayers. I am very humbled by your kindness! Somehow I do not feel alone anymore. As I mentioned before, I do not know how long "this" is going to take, but I am embracing my reality. Can you believe that yesterday I had the courage to go back to reading my devotional and to meditate on the Psalms  ? I had not opened my bible for awhile... Also I made an appointment to see my spiritual director whom I have not talked to since June. I will be seeing him on Friday.
Que Dios les bendiga abundantemente,
(God bless you)
Angie
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