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Kayla
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| Location: | Emmitsburg, Maryland USA |
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| First Name: | Kayla | | Gender: | Female | | Faith History: | Atheist, kind-of Mormon, Catholic |
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Posted: Sat Apr 19th, 2008 04:21 am |
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Unfortunately I don't have the time to go into all of what's going on in my life right now but... I could really use some prayers right now. I've done something stupid and horrible. Now I leave for the weekend and I can't take care of it until I get back.
So, please keep me in your prayers this weekend. I will hopefully give an update when I clear my head and figure all of this crap out.
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Jesus, I trust in You!
There's not a lot of job security for us after death. I suppose that's one advantage of being a philosopher. - Peter Kreeft
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Intercessor
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Posted: Sat Apr 19th, 2008 04:26 am |
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Kayla, I hope you can see a priest very soon. Until then, maybe a sincere Act of Contrition.
I feel for you. I have been where you are, in one way or another.
I'm praying.
Becky
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EMarshallBuckles
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Posted: Sat Apr 19th, 2008 04:51 am |
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Heavenly Father, please bless, protect and guide our good Christian sister Kayla! Please grant her peace that passes understanding about whatever she has done and help her to realize that we all make mistakes, no matter how young or old we are, and that the wonderful thing for her, right now, is that she realizes that she may have made a mistake and is willing to correct it. Please help her know that mistakes are just a chance for a new, fresh start and not a measure of her worth since she is precious in Your sight! Please help her to know that she is nearly angelic compared to a lot of college students these days and please help those students she is around to realize that they have a fine, outstanding Christian young lady in their midst! Please grant Kayla traveling mercies, wherever she may be going keeping her safe. In the Name of Jesus Christ, our loving, living Lord and Savior we pray, AMEN! 
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CajunRick
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Posted: Sat Apr 19th, 2008 05:52 pm |
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Kayla, I read something just the other day that I thought I would share with you.
Pray for me, folks. I need prayers. I really think my s/d put into words what I could not as we discussed the very simple fact of spiritual burn-out. I've been fighting so hard, trying to live out the faith, struggling against sin... Combined with my busy schedule here on campus... I need relaxation. Rest. Not from prayer or Mass or any of that: spiritually I need a change of pace, but in no way do I need a break from the spiritual (hence the desire for me to go on retreat). I need break from this crazy thing we call life. Classes, softball, friends, family, etc. All that 'stuff' that sucks life from you.
Sound familiar?
I think that's what you're facing right now. Exhaustion. Can't see the forest for the trees. Drowning in a sea of classes and softball and friends and family and homework and papers and upcoming finals.
There is nothing you could have done that would make God stop loving you, even if you can't see it for the moment.
If you can't make a long retreat, try a short one. Offer to chaperon a youth group at a summer conference, maybe one of the Steubenville Youth Conferences. You need something to overcome your exhaustion (physical, mental, and spiritual). Or attend one for your own benefit. The conferences at Franciscan U. are great. They are probably full, but sometimes there are last-minute cancellations.
And we all do stupid things. Even the old fogeys. Life goes on, God forgives, and:
The sun will come out tomorrow.
Bet your bottom dollar that
Tomorrow there'll be sun.
Just thinking about tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs and the sorrows
Till there's none.
When I'm stuck in a day that's gray and lonely
I just stick out my chin and grin and say
Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll love you, tomorrow
You're only a day away.
It's amazing how a stupid, obnoxious song can sometimes capture so much truth. (Yes, I really do like the song, but now I know it will be stuck in my head for a week. I hate it when that happens!)
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Understanding is the reward of faith. Therefore seek not to understand that you may believe, but believe that you may understand. - Augustine
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Steven Barrett
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Posted: Sun Apr 20th, 2008 12:50 am |
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Kayla,
My prayers and thoughts go with you. Please don't be unforgiving towards yourself.
I've carried so much baggage for so many years and all I got out of it was more heartache and countless hours that I wasted just ruminating over a seemingly endless hosts of "what ifs, the shouldas, wouldas, etc. and for what? Lessons learned? Well, we are all going to learn them somehow or another, but be don't need to let those lessons become permanent pilloring sessions.
There's nothing that God can't fix and we're never so far from His loving reach that He can't reach down and pull us out of whatever hole we find ourselves stuck in.
Did you see Gibson's Passion? If so, do you remember the scene where Mary meets Jesus and what her Son said? "I make all things new."
Chisel that line into your heart, mind and soul. Believe me, it will pull you through as it has for me when I thought my mind and soul were getting a pretty good raking at the bottom of life's barque; and most of it was because I was carrying too much baggage from something I thought I did that was so serious at roughly the same age you are now.
He really does "make all things new." Not necessarily new in the way we're looking to see remade right now, but He does know each of us and what's best for us and we just have to trust and hang on for dear life itself to find out what that "new" thing He's got in store for us. It's faith, my dear.
But it's faith that keeps us believing there will be newer and brighter things to look forward to.
"all things new." Never forget, and you'll get through this and other challenges -- and there will be more -- to come.
In Christ's name and Love, Steven
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Kayla
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Posted: Mon Apr 21st, 2008 05:45 am |
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Thanks for all of the prayers and replies... The situation is still pretty sticky, but hopefully going up now. I still need some major prayers to get through the rest of it, to stay strong and not give in. Unfortunately that's a little easier said than done.
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Jesus, I trust in You!
There's not a lot of job security for us after death. I suppose that's one advantage of being a philosopher. - Peter Kreeft
http://kayla23mount.blogspot.com/
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Intercessor
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Posted: Mon Apr 21st, 2008 05:55 am |
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Kayla wrote:
Thanks for all of the prayers and replies... The situation is still pretty sticky, but hopefully going up now. I still need some major prayers to get through the rest of it, to stay strong and not give in. Unfortunately that's a little easier said than done.
Kayla, I have been praying for you and will continue praying.
Remember that the Lord is with you in every room, every vehicle . . .
Where can one go to flee His presence? Psalm 139
When I was young, I found it easier to be strong after reflecting that I could not escape the Lord. He followed me, and stood beside me, and was watching me and listening to me every moment.
May you remember His love and His presence.
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"If our charity is arrested by the difficulties encountered in dealing with our neighbor, . . . our relations with our brethren are not regulated by our love of God, but by our love of self." Divine Intimacy p. 781, Fr. Gabriel, O.C.D.
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Credo Catholic
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Posted: Mon Apr 21st, 2008 01:52 pm |
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| I am praying for you sweetie, the Lord knows your need and I trust Him to provide. God bless
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Dave Armstrong
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Posted: Mon Apr 21st, 2008 09:15 pm |
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Hi Kayla,
You're in my prayers as well. Don't be too hard on yourself. It's good to have the attitude of remorse and repentance, but remember that if God can forgive us, we should forgive ourselves also. I know it's very difficult (as an inveterate perfectionist and idealist, believe me, I know!), but just a thought that I had. You're trying to rectify the situation. That's supremely important. So many people won't do that at all. The fact that you openly admit this on this forum is an admirable thing that would also be out of the question for a lot of people because of pride or what not.
We'll all fall many times before we are fully sanctified in heaven. But Jesus will pick us up again if we let Him do so. He'll cry with us and for us. And He will heal us and keep preparing us for the mission He has for our lives. It's always a struggle and a battle, but oh boy!, what a destination that awaits us at the end!
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Ali
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Posted: Tue Apr 22nd, 2008 12:44 pm |
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{makes room on the idiot couch for Kayla, but pushes DaveA off in the process}
{{Kayla}} I hope everything is getting straightened out for you.
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Intercessor
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Posted: Tue Apr 22nd, 2008 06:58 pm |
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Ali wrote:
{makes room on the idiot couch for Kayla, but pushes DaveA off in the process}
Ali
Hey, save room for me on that idiot couch, Ali!
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"If our charity is arrested by the difficulties encountered in dealing with our neighbor, . . . our relations with our brethren are not regulated by our love of God, but by our love of self." Divine Intimacy p. 781, Fr. Gabriel, O.C.D.
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Dave Armstrong
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Posted: Tue Apr 22nd, 2008 07:07 pm |
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{makes room on the idiot couch for Kayla, but pushes DaveA off in the process}
Hey! Save room for me too! I wanna be up there with the rest o' ya! 
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Kayla
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Posted: Tue Apr 22nd, 2008 10:40 pm |
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Heh. Well, thanks again folks. The situation seems to be pretty much taken care of, which is good.
It's just frustrating... You know, doing something you know is wrong before/during/after. Knowing that you consciously choose to do what you know is wrong. And then realizing just a bit later exactly how dumb of a choice that really was... And it being too late to avoid the consequences from it. I know it's kind of a pride thing, but I especially hate this kind of thing because people expect so much more from me. They see me and expect that life of virtue. Then I go and do something like this, they all hear about it... So I guess I can see how sin offends God AND the whole body of believers. It's not just a personal thing.
At any rate, I'm hitting up the confessional tonight.
Please continue to pray for me, though. I have about two weeks to decide whether or not I should play softball next year. I've been praying and praying about it, and I still have no direction. It's kind of hard to not start worrying about it.
Thanks so much, you guys. You're all so wonderful and kind and lovely. God bless.
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I believe, Lord, help my unbelief.
Jesus, I trust in You!
There's not a lot of job security for us after death. I suppose that's one advantage of being a philosopher. - Peter Kreeft
http://kayla23mount.blogspot.com/
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Intercessor
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Posted: Tue Apr 22nd, 2008 10:50 pm |
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Kayla wrote:
At any rate, I'm hitting up the confessional tonight.
Please continue to pray for me, though. I have about two weeks to decide whether or not I should play softball next year. I've been praying and praying about it, and I still have no direction. It's kind of hard to not start worrying about it.
Kayla, God is so merciful to all of us to provide the Sacrament of Penance.
I long for you to hear that you have been absolved and rejoice that it will happen tonight.
I will keep you in my prayers.
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"If our charity is arrested by the difficulties encountered in dealing with our neighbor, . . . our relations with our brethren are not regulated by our love of God, but by our love of self." Divine Intimacy p. 781, Fr. Gabriel, O.C.D.
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Annie
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Posted: Wed Apr 23rd, 2008 03:52 pm |
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| Kayla, you are in good company. Remember what Paul said about doing what he doesn't want to do and not doing what he does want to do? We all are in this position. God understands. He sighs and rolls and his eyes. I wonder if He says to Himself, "How long, Me, will this go on?" Oh, man, I think I got my theology mixed up but you know what I mean.
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Pani Rose
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Posted: Fri May 2nd, 2008 01:29 am |
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Since Annie mentioned St. Paul and I was thinking about him for you also...
O St. Paul, great Apostle of the Gentiles, intercede for us to God. You are God's special vessel of election. Through your intercession we hope to receive from Him this special grace that Kayla needs.
O God, you have instructed many nations through the preaching of the Blessed Apostle Paul. Let the power of his intercession with You help us who venerate his memory this day. Amen.
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